Its been a while since I've posted, Have had alot going on. I'm down to 249, which puts me down 75 lbs. I have 69 lbs to go to my goal. I'm trying to get back into a better eating lifestyle. Not eating out much or if I do I get the healthy choice. I still have 6.5 cc in my band. I feel restriction and if I eat to fast I PB really bad. I'm trying to work on eating slower and taking smaller bites. Another big thing I have is if I'm really hungry I don't chew my food as well as I should.

My weight has been a yoyo. I now have 6 cc's of fluid in my band. I can feel restriction finally. I'm also trying to make myself eat smaller portions. When I went for my last fill in Sept I was down to 266, by the time I got home from my grandmothers funeral I was 260 and when I went for my next fill on Nov 3rd I was 268. I week later at my PCP's office I was 264 (although my home scale showed 260). Next fill is Dec 2nd. Lets see how thanksgiving goes. I'm really nervous about it.

Its been a while. Went in on Sept 2nd for my 2nd fill. Dr gave me 2 more cc's so I am up to 5 cc's in a 10cc Band. So far so good. He was able to find the port this time with no problems and it was over before I knew it. Next fill is on Oct 5th. Right now focus is on protein, can't do shakes so doing meal replacement bars and lots of fish and chicken. Have been sick but for once have been getting my fluids in. Today has been tough. My grandmother passed this morning. She was 85 and had not been herself for last 5 yrs or so living in a Nursing home. She had advanced Alzhiemers so she didn't know who anyone was and as of last weekend could not even talk anymore. She is now in Gods hands with my grandfather who passed away in Sept of 87 and my mom who died in 88.

1st fill

Went for my first fill today. Dr numbed me. Said everything looked good. I got 3cc in my 10 cc band. My roommate went with me. Thankfully I had been told not to look at the needle. My roommate said the needle was almost 6 inches long. I felt pressure only. Took Dr a min or 2 to find the port with the needle. Now that the numbing meds have worn off It hurts to touch it. I'm on liquids today, mushy/soft foods tomorrow. Hopefully I will get some restriction because as of yesterday I had no restriction. I could not eat quite as much but could still eat anything. I go for my next fill on Sept 2nd.

Went to Dr yesterday for migraine. She weighed me and their scale says 272. I'm eating regular food now. Just smaller portions. Was hanging clothes today and I put on a skirt I've not worn in 4 years. Its a 26 and its baggy on me. I was so excited I wanted to cry. Went to show my roomate but I guess he's downstairs doing something. I took a picture of me in the skirt and then I put on a cute shirt I had bought for .99 at fashion bug during a clearance. It fit too. I'm really excited. Today is my 1 month bandiversary and I think its going well. I go on August 5th for my first fill. Kinda nervous about that. Oh well off to bed I have to be up at 5 am. UGH.

Ok, so I'm scared. I feel like a first time mom. Every little thing scares me. I truly felt great the 2nd week. I was supposed to go back to work on Saturday. Well still didn't feel good and actually didn't sleep til 0300 Sat am. After taking a maxalt and a dose of tylenol for my horrendous migraine. By Sunday, I was dehydrated which warranted a trip to the ER for IV fluids. Today (Monday) I went to lay down (now mind you I have been sleeping on my stomach since about a week and a half after surgery. It hurts to sleep on my stomach today, Actually hurts to lay on my side. Feels like a dull pain and pulling. Whats sad is I've been in bed since 9pm, here it is after midnight, I have to be up at 5 am for work and I'm still wide awake. I can't afford to not work because I have NO time for leave. I don't get paid for this time. I've been off work for 3 wks now. I just wanna cry. I hate being a bother to the doctor calling them all the time. I just don't know if this is something normal or not.

7/12/09

So Friday 7/10/09, I went to see my PCP because I was not feeling well. She said I have a sinus infection and put me on antibiotics (zpac 5 day). Since Friday I've not drank a whole lot because I can't stand the taste of plain water when I'm sick. Watered down juice is pushing it for me but regular juice is to sweet. I've had a migraine since Friday too. Was supposed to be back at work yesterday but because of migraine I'm not sleeping at night and have felt like general ass. I have no energy, my head throbs no matter what i take and this morning I woke up w/ a temp of 99.9 which for me is high cause I average 96-97. Afraid to go to hospital cause I think they will admit me cause I'm dehydrated or at least keep me forever to pump me full of fluids. I don't like being sick cause I tend to feel like a baby when I am sick.